Sometimes I’m My Own Worst Enemy

I really want to be a happy-go-lucky,  perky, nothing- gets-me-down person. I am actively trying to teach myself to be one.  I think that I may even come across as being that way to people sometimes. Occasionally, I even feel like that sometimes, briefly. I figure that if I fake it til I make it, then that means that I’m going to make it, right? At least that’s my hope.

But the truth is that I mostly feel sad, depressed, and lonely. I feel inadequate and question myself all the time. I question why I am seeking more responsibility when I feel like I may not even be handling the responsibility that I already have.

Again, I keep thinking that I can fake it til I make it. So, basically, I am trying to teach myself by making myself do things that I feel inadequate at. I’m learning to handle new and more responsibilities by making myself take them on. Being my own teacher is hard!!

I see myself as more of a realistic/bordering on pessimistic person. I do not want to be pessimistic or negative. People who are negative and pessimistic irk me and wear on my nerves! I am well aware that people who are a lot like me tend to annoy me. This makes me think that  I probably am pessimistic and negative, as well as annoying!

I feel like my own worst enemy.

I overthink everything. I don’t want to do that! I don’t want to drive myself insane! If I’m going to be driven insane, I’d prefer to let someone else do it. (Just a joke there.) I feel bad about every time that I have done or said the wrong thing. I do my best to make the right choices and to treat others as I would want to be treated or for my loved ones to be treated. I question myself and wonder why I do things sometimes. Am I really a good person, even? I so desperately want to be a good person.

I have decided that the only way that I can put these thoughts out of my head is to put new, better thoughts into my head. I am fortunate in that I like to try new things and learn new things. This has been what saves me from my own thoughts. That is why I continue to force myself to seek out new, interesting things to do and learn.

I am my own worst enemy, but I’m trying to change to my own best friend.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sisters

I have two sisters. I love my sisters. We have so much fun when we are together.

We grew up together, so we know and understand each other like no one else does. This is mostly good. It can be bad also, because we can also annoy each other like no one else can. But I will say that it’s mostly awesome.

I don’t live close to my sisters, so I don’t get to see them often. When we do get to spend time together, it’s usually with our husbands and kids, too.  And it’s usually just for a couple of days, so it seems like our visits are always way too short.

It’s always fun to hear what is going on in my sisters’ lives. We are all busy people and don’t actually talk on the phone much. We do have a group text, which is pretty entertaining. And there’s that one sister who has trouble with her predictive text and so we are always trying to figure out what she’s actually trying to say (not going to name any names here.)

I’d have to say that both of my sisters are crazy aunts to my kids. One may be a little crazier than the other. Again, not mentioning any names:) They are both entertaining aunts, at the least.

Between my sisters and me, we have six daughters. I see the same sisterly bond in them. So far, our daughters are fortunate enough to live close to their own sisters. I pray that they always will get to live and be close to their sisters.

If you’re fortunate enough to have a sister, cherish your relationship with her! Spend lots of time together having fun!

13 Things All Grown Up Sisters Should Do Together I’m going to text my sisters about this article. If they don’t agree to plan some things with me,  I’ll text/annoy them til they give up and agree to plan with me. You know, like the good big sister that I am.

Before we know it, it will be spring, then summer, then fall. All perfect times to do things with your sisters. Right, sisters? Get ready for fun!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Christmas Brunch

Three days until Christmas! There’s a chance of snow here, so there is a chance that we may have a white or whitish Christmas. Either way, it looks like it’s going to be cold.

The tradition in our family is that our kids and their families come over on Christmas morning. We have breakfast and then open presents. For the past few years we have been playing Dirty Santa, too. Dirty Santa is a lot of fun!

We have four grandchildren, ranging in age from four to eight, and this year we will have a game for them to play, too. I don’t think that they’re really old enough to play Dirty Santa, because one of them would probably get their feelings hurt when they got the gift that they liked taken by someone else.

Our breakfast menu is usually pretty much the same from year to year. This year we are having eggs, toast, biscuits and gravy, bacon, and ham. We will also have coffee and juice. This year I’m going to make a recipe I found on Pinterest called Christmas Sherbet Punch. It looks SO GOOD and I’m sure that the grandkids will get a kick out of it.

One year we had Cream Cheese Stuffed French Toast as part of our Christmas breakfast. That was a little time consuming but it was worth it!

Another year, we had quiche. Spinach quiche is my favorite kind. I haven’t used this recipe, but this recipe for Cheesy Bacon Spinach Quiche looks delicious. A lot of people don’t seem to care for quiche, but I think that anyone who likes quiche appreciates the extra effort by someone who makes one. I consider it a treat.

As our family grows, our Christmas breakfast tradition may change, but for now we really enjoy it. Hoping that your holidays are fun and family filled, too!

 

 

It Doesn’t Take Much to Make Kids Happy

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My grandson turned four years old last month. When I asked him what he wanted for his birthday, he said that he wanted a kitten and a reacher. A reacher as in a device that is used to reach for/grab things with.

My husband has one so I guess that’s where he got the idea. Pap always makes things look like fun, and I guess that my grandson wanted to have as good a time as Pap does.

I wanted to make sure that that was what he really wanted, because it seemed a little too easy, even for a three/almost four year old. I asked him what he wanted a couple of other times and his answer was the same.

I should have known right away that it was true, because he and his brother have always been very easy to please. When his older brother was four, I asked him what he wanted for Christmas that year and his reply was that he wanted bandaids. 🙂

I just love how easy young kids are to please! Not that they wouldn’t be very happy with expensive or elaborate gifts, but they can be just as happy with very simple things.

I didn’t get my grandson a kitten because his parents were planning to let him pick one out himself. So I got him kitten accessories. And a reacher. And a package of bubble gum.

We know what he likes! It sure was  fun to see the little guy open his presents.

Scroll down to see what he got!

 

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