I really want to be a happy-go-lucky, perky, nothing- gets-me-down person. I am actively trying to teach myself to be one. I think that I may even come across as being that way to people sometimes. Occasionally, I even feel like that sometimes, briefly. I figure that if I fake it til I make it, then that means that I’m going to make it, right? At least that’s my hope.
But the truth is that I mostly feel sad, depressed, and lonely. I feel inadequate and question myself all the time. I question why I am seeking more responsibility when I feel like I may not even be handling the responsibility that I already have.
Again, I keep thinking that I can fake it til I make it. So, basically, I am trying to teach myself by making myself do things that I feel inadequate at. I’m learning to handle new and more responsibilities by making myself take them on. Being my own teacher is hard!!
I see myself as more of a realistic/bordering on pessimistic person. I do not want to be pessimistic or negative. People who are negative and pessimistic irk me and wear on my nerves! I am well aware that people who are a lot like me tend to annoy me. This makes me think that I probably am pessimistic and negative, as well as annoying!
I feel like my own worst enemy.
I overthink everything. I don’t want to do that! I don’t want to drive myself insane! If I’m going to be driven insane, I’d prefer to let someone else do it. (Just a joke there.) I feel bad about every time that I have done or said the wrong thing. I do my best to make the right choices and to treat others as I would want to be treated or for my loved ones to be treated. I question myself and wonder why I do things sometimes. Am I really a good person, even? I so desperately want to be a good person.
I have decided that the only way that I can put these thoughts out of my head is to put new, better thoughts into my head. I am fortunate in that I like to try new things and learn new things. This has been what saves me from my own thoughts. That is why I continue to force myself to seek out new, interesting things to do and learn.
I am my own worst enemy, but I’m trying to change to my own best friend.
I got a new job!!! One of the great things about nursing is that there are SO MANY DIFFERENT JOBS!!! You could switch jobs every couple of years and still never do all of the kinds of nursing jobs that are out there.
The dress code for the new job is just scrubs: any color! Most jobs that I’ve had required a specific color or colors of scrubs, so being able to pick the colors and patterns is a bonus to me. It just makes dressing for work a little more fun.
I was fortunate to find a whole scrub outfit, including socks and shoes, when I went shopping yesterday. My number one criteria is always comfort, but I like to try to look put together also. I don’t want to look like I just grabbed whatever scrubs were close by and put them on. Well, hopefully no one does that!
First, the scrub top. I have bought many scrub tops over the years. What I like about this style is the fact that it has the flexible side panels. They allow some stretch to the garment. And there are several prints available in this style. Of course, I love the dog and cat print.
Secondly, the pants. This is the second pair of these pants that I have bought. The fabric is very smooth and lightweight. They fit me comfortably yet don’t look sloppy.
Next, the scrub jacket. I don’t wear scrub jackets much, but when you need to wear one, you want it to look nice. This fabric is very lightweight. I like the cut in the front. It is a very flattering fit.
Next up, the shoes. This is my second pair of Asics. I still LOVE the first pair that I bought. They are hands down the most comfortable nursing shoes that I have ever purchased. They are also the most expensive nursing shoes that I have ever purchased. This pair was much less expensive than the first pair that I bought, yet still pretty pricey. My other pair doesn’t look good with every set of scrubs because the colors in the shoes are very bright. So, when I found these that are comfortable and a basic color, I bought them.
Last but not least, my compression socks. Compression socks are as important to me as good shoes are. I wear this brand and another brand. What I like about this brand is that they are thin but not like hose (I don’t care for the TED type compression socks). The compression is good but not overly tight. I found out a long time ago that my legs hurt when I’m working, unless I wear compression socks or hose.
I’m crazy about open shelves. Like built ins, they add so much character to a room. What is displayed on the shelves sets a mood and can say so much about a person.
When I think of open shelves, I first think of kitchen shelves, although they can actually be used in any room of the house. After all, they are just shelves, but with no doors to hide what is on them.
The catch is that they are not attractive unless they are kept neat. I’ll have to admit that is an issue for me. I’m thinking that I could only handle keeping a few shelves neat enough to have them open.
And this last one is my favorite! I love the way the shelves are arranged. It looks like it would be so easy to just reach up and grab what I needed off each one.
I’ll definitely be incorporating a few open shelves into my kitchen. I’m thinking that I may actually end up needing a few new dishes to display on them. Either way, I plan to mainly use them for my most often used and prettiest items.
Yesterday we needed a few groceries so we stopped by Aldi. I thought that I’d share my top 5 favorite buys this week.
#1 was this guacamole dip! It’s got beans and corn in it and it’s a little spicy. I’ll definitely be buying this again!
#2 was these roasted/salted pumpkin seeds. They’re a little crunchy and lightly seasoned and this is actually the second time that I’ve bought these.
#3 was the pizza strips. They come with two dipping sauces and are pretty tasty.
#4 was jalapeno flavored kettle chips. They’re crunchy and a little spicy. These are my husband’s favorite chips from Aldi.
#5 was roasted red pepper hummus. It is mild flavored and tastes very similar to other brands that I’ve bought elsewhere.
Aldi is a great place to shop. I have bought a little of everything there. Some things I like better than others, but that is the case in any store. Aldi is definitely a store where I will continue shopping regularly.
I love soups and I love ham and bean soup! I found a new recipe that I’m going to try for ham and bean soup. I’m not actually sure if I’ve ever used a recipe for ham and bean soup in the past. I tend to have better luck if I at least start with a recipe, even if I end up changing it here and there to suit my own tastes.
Click here for the recipe for ham and bean soup that I’m going to use. It is one that I found on my good ole Pinterest. I love Pinterest. I have more things pinned that I could ever humanly actually make, but I still love it.
The ingredients make my mouth water!
I’m also trying false eyelashes this week. I was inspired by watching a facebook video of Chrissy B Blevio. She made them look and sound so easy and achievable for me. Unfortunately, I can’t remember exactly which video it was that I was watching. Fortunately, though, she is on facebook and does weekly videos called Makeup-Tip Monday. You can see this week’s video if you find her on Facebook. I like her tips!
This is the kit that I used. It worked pretty well, even though I have very little experience with false lashes. I am glad that I found this kit (at Walmart) because it was definitely the way to go for me.
Today was the the third day that I’ve used these lashes. It goes a little easier each time that I use them.
Next time I will try lashes that are a little fuller and maybe a little shorter, but I am happy with these for now!
I have two sisters. I love my sisters. We have so much fun when we are together.
We grew up together, so we know and understand each other like no one else does. This is mostly good. It can be bad also, because we can also annoy each other like no one else can. But I will say that it’s mostly awesome.
I don’t live close to my sisters, so I don’t get to see them often. When we do get to spend time together, it’s usually with our husbands and kids, too. And it’s usually just for a couple of days, so it seems like our visits are always way too short.
It’s always fun to hear what is going on in my sisters’ lives. We are all busy people and don’t actually talk on the phone much. We do have a group text, which is pretty entertaining. And there’s that one sister who has trouble with her predictive text and so we are always trying to figure out what she’s actually trying to say (not going to name any names here.)
I’d have to say that both of my sisters are crazy aunts to my kids. One may be a little crazier than the other. Again, not mentioning any names:) They are both entertaining aunts, at the least.
Between my sisters and me, we have six daughters. I see the same sisterly bond in them. So far, our daughters are fortunate enough to live close to their own sisters. I pray that they always will get to live and be close to their sisters.
If you’re fortunate enough to have a sister, cherish your relationship with her! Spend lots of time together having fun!
13 Things All Grown Up Sisters Should Do Together I’m going to text my sisters about this article. If they don’t agree to plan some things with me, I’ll text/annoy them til they give up and agree to plan with me. You know, like the good big sister that I am.
Before we know it, it will be spring, then summer, then fall. All perfect times to do things with your sisters. Right, sisters? Get ready for fun!
Three days until Christmas! There’s a chance of snow here, so there is a chance that we may have a white or whitish Christmas. Either way, it looks like it’s going to be cold.
The tradition in our family is that our kids and their families come over on Christmas morning. We have breakfast and then open presents. For the past few years we have been playing Dirty Santa, too. Dirty Santa is a lot of fun!
We have four grandchildren, ranging in age from four to eight, and this year we will have a game for them to play, too. I don’t think that they’re really old enough to play Dirty Santa, because one of them would probably get their feelings hurt when they got the gift that they liked taken by someone else.
Our breakfast menu is usually pretty much the same from year to year. This year we are having eggs, toast, biscuits and gravy, bacon, and ham. We will also have coffee and juice. This year I’m going to make a recipe I found on Pinterest called Christmas Sherbet Punch. It looks SO GOOD and I’m sure that the grandkids will get a kick out of it.
Another year, we had quiche. Spinach quiche is my favorite kind. I haven’t used this recipe, but this recipe for Cheesy Bacon Spinach Quiche looks delicious. A lot of people don’t seem to care for quiche, but I think that anyone who likes quiche appreciates the extra effort by someone who makes one. I consider it a treat.
As our family grows, our Christmas breakfast tradition may change, but for now we really enjoy it. Hoping that your holidays are fun and family filled, too!
It’s that time of the year when people will be deciding on their resolutions for the new year. I personally have had many New Year’s resolutions over the years. I’ve even managed to come up with some good ones that seemed achievable for me.
But…. a year is a long time. To say that you’re going to do something for a year or for the rest of your life is a big task; a daunting task. At least to me it is. I’m not sure that I’ve ever even remembered my New Year’s resolution for a whole year, let alone actually stuck with one for a whole year.
The more that I have thought about this, the more that I have realized that a New DAY’S resolution is actually more my speed. I can make it through a day doing something and if I think I can handle it for another day, I can add a day! Or I can even schedule a day later on; not necessarily consecutive days.
For instance, I am always trying to eat more healthy foods. My New Day’s resolution could be “tomorrow I am going to eat healthy foods all day.” Say that I make it through the end of the day and am still eating healthy food and feeling good about it. I could have the same resolution for the next day.
Maybe this is lame, but it works for me. Adios to New Year’s resolutions!
I always have a hard time figuring out what to take to holiday dinners. Whenever someone asks what I want to bring, the old standbys are what come to mind for me. Stuffing, green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, noodles, etc. None of these ever sound that exciting to me, even though I like all of them. They just don’t sound exciting to make.
Well, this year I decided to make stuffing and green bean casserole to take for Thanksgiving lunch at my son’s and daughter-in-law’s home. This was after I googled and Pinterest-ed recipes to find what I thought looked like good recipes. Both dishes turned out really well.
Green bean casserole usually tastes a little bland to me, but I found several recipes that sounded better than the standard back-of-the-label of French’s Fried Onions recipe. I combined my favorites parts of the recipes and came up with this one. I like that you don’t add a can of anything to it.
Then I found a couple other recipes that sounded really good, too. A few called for bacon. I mean, you can’t really go wrong when you add BACON to something, right?
So, I used the original yummy recipe found here and added 2 slices of crumbled, crisp- cooked bacon. I mixed in half of the bacon in the green bean casserole and added the other half of each on top of the dish. This recipe makes enough to fill a 9×13 dish.
It was the best green bean casserole that I’ve ever eaten. And I’ve tried quite a few!
I’m planning to make it a couple more times this month.
I love product reviews! I’m always googling them whenever I’m thinking about buying a certain product that I don’t really know anything about. I thought that I’d do a product review post. Because they are FUN.
I LOVE these. Yes, they seem a little weird at first. Well, I guess that they are weird. I have found out that I frown in my sleep. Not a little; a LOT. These keep me from having bad frown lines between my eyes. If I don’t sleep with one of these on, I wake up with very visible frown lines. I buy these from Amazon.
I first used this lotion at a hospital where I worked. It’s very moisturizing yet absorbs quickly and doesn’t feel heavy. And it smells really nice. I actually have ordered this from Amazon myself because I wanted some at home to use.
I like to polish my nails, but waiting until they are completely dry is another thing. I use these to help my nails dry more quickly. They make a huge difference. I usually buy this from Walmart, but it looks like this price on Amazon is about the same as what I pay at Walmart.
I’m a nurse so I’m on my feet a lot. I bought these years ago (probably at least ten years ago) and they are still as good as new. These work by gently stretching your toes, which stretches your whole foot. It makes your tired feet feel SOOOO good. I bought these from the Yoga Toes website. It’s been so long ago that I don’t remember what I paid.
I wear these to work in. Heck, sometimes I even wear them on my days off. They keep my legs from aching when I’m on my feet a lot. If I don’t wear these to work for some reason, my legs do hurt. That’s pretty good proof that they work. I have bought these locally, but I see that the Amazon price is about the same as what I have paid locally.
Hope you enjoyed the reviews of some of my favorite things. They’re favorites because they’re awesome!
Boy, have I ever learned a lot since I became a foster parent.
My husband and I became foster parents almost two years ago. We are getting ready to renew our two year fostering license next month, which means we are about to start our third year as foster parents. My way of thinking about fostering has changed so much.
As can be expected, I had a pretty idealized idea of how foster parenting would be. I thought that our home would be a home where we would be able to take any foster child and help them. I thought that our home would be a home where we would take a child and provide a home for them until they went back to their parents, until they graduated, etc.
I certainly never thought that we would have any child for only a few months and then say that we needed a break. Not us! Not me.
But I was wrong. I have renewed respect for anyone who takes on the responsibility of raising someone else’s child or children, be it a stepchild, foster child, or some other type of situation.
Living with someone new in your home is hard. Raising kids is hard. Raising kids who aren’t your own kids, who haven’t grown up with your family, in your home, with your rules, with your expectations, etc, is even harder. Add to that a child who has had a traumatic life and who has difficult behaviors to deal with. It makes life downright exhausting.
The way that this has affected my view of being a foster parent is that I now realize that some children will not be in my care until they no longer need a home. Some children will only be in my care while I have the energy to be a good foster parent to them.
I’m sure that this sounds very callous to anyone who has no experience with fostering. But the truth is that some fostering situations take a lot more of a person’s heart, soul, and energy than they can dish out long term.
I’ve realized that I can only do the best job that I can do for as long as I can do it. In certain situations, that will be short term. In other situations, that will be long term.
It makes me sad for the foster children who are moved from home to home. There are a lot of them. It is heartbreaking when a child calls you mom or mommy just because that child is at your house for a few days. That is a child who doesn’t really know what it is to have a normal family with a normal mom or dad.
Some days are really hard. Some days are great. When it comes down to it, you just have to do the best that you can do. When you are no longer able to deal with a certain child and their behaviors or a situation, you sometimes have to decide to ask for a child to be moved to another home.
It’s hard. Thank goodness for the good days when you can see that you’re helping a child.
The word routine has a bad reputation. It implies boring and old. But routines are a good thing. In fact, they are a great thing.
Good routines are comforting in the same way that some foods are comforting. Routines help us to do things without having to put much thought into them. They make our lives easier.
Say that you got up for work in the morning and did not have a morning or evening routine. You would probably not have set your alarm, so you could be late for whatever you had planned for the day. You may not have any clean clothes because you may not have thought about this before hand. You may not know where your shoes are because you didn’t put them in a certain spot. You most likely would end up spending a lot of time looking for something clean to wear and some shoes.
So, basically, having a routine just means that someone has done a certain thing or set of things over and over basically the same way until it has become a habit. Just those few examples demonstrate how not having a routine can set you up for disaster.
One thing that I’ve found in life is that it’s pretty easy to start a new habit by doing something for a few days or weeks. Likewise, it’s also very easy to stop a habit (even a good habit) by getting out of your routine for a few days or weeks.
I once had a patient who (in my opinion) went a little overboard with his routines. He had his whole LIFE down to a schedule of routines.
This man was older, in his 80s, I believe. I was working in home health at the time. I or another nurse would go to his home to visit him a couple of times a week.
This man had his life down to a science. He was not in any way flexible. I figured this out when I called the first time to schedule a visit to his home and spoke with his daughter. I asked if I could go at a certain time and she said that her dad would be eating lunch at that time. So I said, fine, and asked her what time would be good for me to make a visit.
We worked out a time and I went to see her dad later that day, after lunch. Her dad was waiting for me in the living room. I did my assessment and vital signs, talked to him, did the rest of my job and left.
The next time that I called to make a visit (later that week), the exact same scenario played out.
Part of my job was to ask him about his meals, his bowels, urinating, medications, sleeping, etc. This man was very interesting; much more so than the average home health patient.
I found out that he got up at the same exact time every day. He had the same exact food for breakfast at the same exact time every day. He smoked one cigarette every hour on the hour. He watched the same tv shows at the same time every day. He had the same food for lunch at the same time every day. He took a nap at the same time every day, for the same length of time.
I don’t mean that he did almost the same things at approximately the same time every day. I mean he did all of the exact same things at exactly the same time in exactly the same way every day. He was extreme.
I guess that this extreme structure worked for him. Of course, most people are not that unwavering in their routines. I guess that, for whatever reason, he found comfort in having this amount of structure.
I recently read that the reason that autistic people like/need routine is that they aren’t able to predict the future. I really know very little about autism, but I do know that many autistic people do have many routines and can actually get very upset if their routines aren’t followed.
For someone who isn’t able to predict the future, it makes sense that a routine would be of utmost importance to them. It would give a sense of security because they would not have the uncertainty of what was going to happen to them next.
Of course, none of us can predict the future, but most of us can reasonably plan our days and have a good idea of how our days will unfold. This does require having a routine to a certain extent, though. Our days do usually involve planning in order to flow well.
Children also need routines in their lives. They need the security of knowing that someone is going to be taking care of their needs; feeding them regularly, bathing them, putting them to bed, etc. . Having security enables them to go about the business of being children and doing all that being a child entails.
As an adult, having a routine helps me, especially since I am not blessed with organizational skills. Following my bedtime and morning routines helps me to have more brain energy to put into other things. And I can definitely use all of the extra brain energy that I can get.
Having an end of day routine helps me to relax and start winding down towards bedtime. Coming home from work, I take my shoes off at the door and put my slippers on. I put my purse and other belongings in my bedroom. I change into my comfy clothes; I have my comfy clothes in a certain drawer. Then I do whatever it is that I need to do.
I have my routines and they may be different in ways from your routines. But I would guess that they are probably fairly similar in ways.
I love a good deal! Especially if it’s something that I’m already shopping for.
One day a couple weeks ago, we went to our grandson’s birthday party. My daughter was wearing a pair of white linen pants. I decided that I wanted a pair like hers. They looked so comfy, like pajamas, yet presentable enough to wear in public. That’s a double win, if you ask me!
I got lucky and found the pants the very next day. Even though I don’t shop at TJ Maxx that often, I decided to stop there. Our local TJ Maxx is in the (only) mall in our city, so when I went to the mall to go to Joann Fabrics , I made a stop at TJ Maxx on the way to Joann’s. The store was literally on my way to Joann’s.
I found several pair of white and black linen pants on clearance there. I also found a lot of other clothes on clearance.
Here’s what I got: a pair of pants in white for $4! A navy blue top with pretty detailing on the front for $6 and a blue/pink multicolored top for $8.
These items are all so light and comfortable that I plan to wear them all that I can . I’ll definitely get my money’s worth!
Thanks to my beautiful daughter who agreed to be my model. 😉❤️
My grandson turned four years old last month. When I asked him what he wanted for his birthday, he said that he wanted a kitten and a reacher. A reacher as in a device that is used to reach for/grab things with.
My husband has one so I guess that’s where he got the idea. Pap always makes things look like fun, and I guess that my grandson wanted to have as good a time as Pap does.
I wanted to make sure that that was what he really wanted, because it seemed a little too easy, even for a three/almost four year old. I asked him what he wanted a couple of other times and his answer was the same.
I should have known right away that it was true, because he and his brother have always been very easy to please. When his older brother was four, I asked him what he wanted for Christmas that year and his reply was that he wanted bandaids. 🙂
I just love how easy young kids are to please! Not that they wouldn’t be very happy with expensive or elaborate gifts, but they can be just as happy with very simple things.
I didn’t get my grandson a kitten because his parents were planning to let him pick one out himself. So I got him kitten accessories. And a reacher. And a package of bubble gum.
We know what he likes! It sure was fun to see the little guy open his presents.
Two years ago I worked three ten(nish) hour days a week at my nursing job. Four days a week I usually took a nap because I had nothing pressing to do. Not to mention that I LOVE naps.
Now I am working PRN (as needed, pre-scheduled days) at nursing. I rarely have time to take a nap. And I am more tired and busier than ever.
The fact that I had nothing pressing to do two years ago was really a problem for me. I like to have something pressing to do (well, to a degree!). I like to feel that I am making a positive difference in the world.
That’s how I ended up becoming a foster parent. It was a long process, because I had to figure it out first. I knew I wanted to do something to help people, but it took awhile before I figured out that I wanted to try fostering.
Once I figured it out, my husband and I had to decide on what ages we would be willing to foster. We felt like we could really help older children and teens, who are harder to place in foster homes. Most people want to foster (and/or adopt) younger children. We have raised three children and made it through their teen years, so we have learned a lot.
I began doing some research about fostering teens. I filled out a couple of online forms, and I ended up being contacted by an agency that specializes in case management of children with severe behavioral and emotional needs. And that is how we became foster parents of elevated needs children.
Needless to say, the last two years have seen an enormous change in our lives. But it’s been a change for the better. Now I wake up and I feel a sense of purpose each and every single day, whether I’m working at my nursing job or just at home for the day. Because either way, I have some important things to do!
My oldest child, my 34 year old son, got married over the weekend. The rehearsal dinner was on Friday, two days before the wedding, which was on Sunday.
This was my third and last bio child to get married. I have two daughters who have both been married for years (the oldest has been married for thirteen years, and the youngest has been married for almost nine years).
I, along with a few helpers, have prepared almost all of the food for the weddings and the rehearsal dinner. As you can imagine, this took quite a bit of research and preparation.
When I was thinking about doing the reception food for my oldest daughter’s wedding, I did a lot of research and found a great resource book. The name of the book is Cater Your Own Wedding: Easy Waysto Do It YourselfinStyle. I ordered the book from Amazon. I believe that my copy was used, but I have ordered a lot of used books and rarely can you even tell that they are used.
This book was a life saver! It tells you what to do step by step. It takes any guess work out of hosting a large event; not just a wedding.
Sometimes, right before I fall asleep, I get a few crazy thoughts. We’ll call them great ideas. Because that’s what they seem like at the time.
“Tomorrow when I get up, the first thing I’m going to do is make banana bread with those black bananas.” (I usually just end up throwing them away.)
“I’m going to set my alarm for 5 a.m. so that I can get up and go for a walk (sure, we’ll go ahead and call it a run) before it gets hot. (This has never actually happened.)
“I need a fan next to the bed because God is trying to kill me with hot flashes. I’m going to get a fan with a remote control so that I can turn it off and on during the night.”
“I’m going to start a blog! I don’t know how or what about, but I’m going to do it! I’ll google ‘How to start a blog’ first thing in the morning.”
Sometimes my late night (8 pm) ideas still seem like good ideas the next day, when I’m fully awake. And sometimes I follow through with a few of these ideas.
For instance, I did get a fan with a remote to put by my bed. Hot flashes are no joke and call for serious interventions to keep a person from losing their sanity.
I went to Walmart and bought myself a 3 foot tall oscillating fan with a remote control. The fan stand had a nifty holder for the remote. At night I would take the remote out of the holder and put it on the night stand next to my bed.
I can seriously say that I loved that remote. Whenever I would get hot at night, I could (usually) keep my eyes closed and reach over to my night stand and find the remote. I would turn the fan on and be in heaven until I got cold. Then I would turn it off again until I got hot again.
Unfortunately, my grandson loves remotes. My dearly loved remote soon disappeared for several weeks. We looked and looked for it and eventually found it one day in my husband’s sock drawer. For awhile, I was in fan remote control bliss again. Then it disappeared again.
Mr. Remote Thief would not admit to having taken it, let alone tell us where it was. It has been several months, and it is still missing. Thank goodness that my hot flashes have gotten much less frequent and I don’t really “need” a remote control fan like I did before.
My idea about writing a blog has come to me several times over the years. Recently (last week) I googled ‘How to start a blog’ and found a very detailed post on a blog (I love blogs!) on how to start a blog (imagine that!).
Late one night, at the advice of the ‘How to start a blog’, I decided to spend a couple hundred dollars on a website for my blog, instead of using a free website (honestly, I don’t know if I’m using the correct terminology for all of this). And now here I am finishing up (very tediously and by doing it all the wrong way and re-doing it) working on my website and first blog.
Spending money for this is putting a little pressure on me to do something with it. On the other hand, even if I fail miserably, a couple hundred dollars for a years worth of entertaining myself seems pretty inexpensive.